days fly
Days are going by so quickly, its not long to go until i start uni, and to be honest with you i'm having major second thoughts about going, i don't know why but i actually don't feel like going. I had a long chat with Becky today, i told her how i felt and that the only reason i'm going through with it is because everything is planned and plus i don't wana let jas down, she's really looking forward to it ( as she's never been out of london) Becky told me to do what ever my heart tells me and that either way jas will understand.
I thought this was what i wanted, i've been waiting for this chance for soo long and to be with lucus,then what is wrong with me, why do i feel this way?
my family are going to scotland on the 7th of october cause its 1 of my cousins wedding, and their all busy getting their clothes and stuff but i won't be going as i'll be in southampton, so i have'nt really bothered with buying anything for the occasion.
OH i forgot to mention its my B'day on the 6th of october, i'll probebrly not do anything special just maybe cut a cake, i can't believe that i'm gonna be turning 20 in a couple of weeks. I remember when i first started this journal i was only 18 years old, i've changed alot since then, i used to be alot naiver then, but i reckon that i can be a better person,even though i don't mention it i have a bit of a temper, and can really fire off when people piss me off, i really hate that side of me.
Anyway enough of sad talk, its depressing me, so i guess i'll sign off now..........................
ciya all...