it's over
I did'nt get much sleep last night all i did was, think, think, think.
Lucus has'nt come over today or rung me, i think he's still really mad at me or maybe he's waiting for me to apologize first.
I've been thinking all day today, and i've made a decision, i'm not gonna ring and apologize to lucus, and if he comes over or rings, i'm gonna tell him that things are over between us, i just can't take this arguing anymore, i mean how many times have we argued since i've been in southampton, sometimes i think maybe lucus does'nt like my coming here, maybe i cramp his style, who knows.......
I know its a sudden, harsh decision,i love lucus to death, but i just can't be with someone who would rather take a complete strangers side over mine, i've thought long and hard about this, and i really think its the best thing to do, this is it, it's over, its gonna hurt like mad, but i have to do this.
11.23 pm
I really thought lucus would've come over, or even rung me, but he has'nt, i bet he's still waiting for me to make the first move, but i'm not gonna do that, i still sticking with my decision to break up, i have'nt changed my mind, and the sooner it is done the better.
Everytime, i see lee i just totally ignore her, i don't even wana look at her, does she even realise what she has done to me?, but hell i can't avoid her forever, we share the same kitchen, living room, e.t.c, at least she does'nt have acess upstairs, and right know, if she did come up-stairs i'd proberbly end up pushing her down the stairs, thats how much i hate her.
o.k i'm gonna go and get some sleep now, todays just been such a lousy day...