wanna get bck
Well i'm typing this in the uni computer lab.
I did'nt get much sleep last night, i just could'nt help but think how shit the doctor made me look infront of adam.
So first thing this morning i went to the surgery to put the posters up and they looked damm good, i put alot of effort in them, anyways when i had put them up, i was about to leave but the doctor arrived and saw the posters and said that i did'nt need to come in, to put them up, so i told her that it was my fault (not) and i wanted to be the one to put them back up, so then she smiled and tapped me on the shoulder, i then left for uni.
So i guess things are alright now, but inside i still don't like her, i'm just putting on a fake face.
Hmm, theres still the adam issue, i don't know how i'm gonna feel when i see him, am i gonna start crying? am i gonna feel jealous? But why should i feel jealous? its not like i love him or anything, he can do whatever he wants.
Last night i was pretty upset, and wrote some stuff about lucus, but i don;t know how i feel about that now, i'm confused, i don't know what i want, i still miss him.
Well i need to finish typing an assignment, so i'm gonna sign off from here. I'll proberbly write more in the evening.
9.26pm
Well i went to work this afternoon, adam did'nt really mention his girlfriend, so that was a good thing.
But he did say that yesterday, i shoud've just kept quite about the posters, but its over now and done with, and mistakes happen.
I'm so glad, that adam does'nt think of me as a clutz or somert, he's such a good friend, and i don't want to spoil that, so yeh, what i'm trying to say is that i'm happy that adam's found himself a girl.
Me and him are friends and nothing more, anyway i never felt anything serious for him, it was just plain attraction, besides i never stop loving lucus, he's always been there, even if he's not around.
But i've been thinking i'm gonna change that, i'm gonna get back with lucus, becoz i can't go on without him, i thought i could, but i can't.
But i don't wan't to rush things, i'm going to london next week, for the easter break, and i'll decide, how to go about it when i get back.