today's bitch
I feel so low, like a total bitch.Lucus phoned me this evening, he was being ever so sweet, he asked if i had calmed down now, and that if he could come over to talk about things, but i fobbed him off, i don't know a part of me wanted him to come and hold me in his arms and a part of me just wanted him to leave me alone.
I'm such a confusing person, i do wana get back with him, but i'm enjoying this time alone to myself too much, do i even make sense.
So basically i told him that i still cared about him, but i could'nt be with him or anyone else right now.
So there, looks like i've blown any chance of me and lucus ever getting back together.
I'm a bitch who runs away from things. The weird thing is that drew and adam don't even know much about lucus, drews seen his picture, and adam knows i have a boyfriend, but they don't know we've broken up, adam never really chats about that topic, and drew just wants to chat about himself, so i never really bothered telling them, so as far as they are concerned they still think i have a B/F who i see every evening and weekend.
But despite that, drew still teases me that i have a thing for adam, which i always deny, coz i don't want gossip spreading, besides adam's got a G/F.