soo lame
That last entry was so pathetic, it makes me sick, did i really write that shit.
The party was good, i had fun, but to be honest deep down, i was heartbroken, i was'nt in the mood at all to party, but i only went along with it, to make the others happy.
Its so easy to put on a fake smile, but inside, behind that smile i'm so messed up, noone really understands what i'm going through, not even jas, but why should she? shes got jason and shes happy, so why can't i be happy, why can't i have lucus, why?
It's all my fault and i hate myself, but i won't give up theres still hope, all i have to do is go and see him.